Cumulus

Nov. 29th, 2009

Stay Now

mood: anxious

Ugh I had a horrid dream.
I went to fashion square and scored 3 new shirts. I think I total in about 3 new shirts, dresses or pants, every week. It's descent, but nothing near what I will be able to do once money isn't as strained. I am grateful though, money isn't too much of a struggle for me as it can be for SO MANY people. One thing thats great, is I have no debt what so ever.
Time is moving pretty fast, I'm almost done with fall semester and then only have spring to struggle through. I'm currently forming stomach ulcers over my grades. I am a firm believer that your brain just WORKS IN CERTAN SUBJECTS AND THEN DOESNT WORK IN OTHERS. Bottomline. Art?English?Foreign Language? Those subjects are second nature, easy As. Math?Science? I bust my ass for a B orC.
Lets just say... I hate school. It's outdated, I mean the system hasnt been changed since WWII. ALOT has changed since then. Whatever, college is right around the corner. More convient. On my own time.
But yes I had a horrid dream.
My dream was just a mix of my littlest worries and anxiety coming out. Top with screaming when I woke up and uncontrolable sobs. At least its raining today, it made me really happy.
Thanksgiving was so nice. I miss seeing my family. <3
Alright enough with the emo post. I need to get back on my feet. Lifes picking up again and I cant sit their and feel sorry for myself, when alot of things are good in my life.
Going to hear from the man really soon. <3 Talk about a busy person. He works his ass off. Oh well he'll get to have some play time soon enough. <3 ;D

Check it Out My Family Has A Crest!
I love that there's a lion on it.
Except my family spells our name with an "o" instead of an "i"

Tags: life

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Oct. 22nd, 2009

DRACULA IS GONNA BANG THIS SHIT

mood: ecstatic

Awww where to begin.....
So it's basically destiny that I met Saori. Her and I can go on for hours about fashion since we both share the same love for ViVi and anything sexy with class. I have to do a presentation in my JPN class about what I enjoy about Japan...so OF COURSE my topic is on GOOD TOKYO FASHION, not the lolita stuff. =P (LOL nooooo offense Kagome lolita is bomb with you just not my thing)
I was laughing with Saori about how as an English teacher in Tokyo, you make a pretty solid amount, that is for a woman supporting just herself. You get about...$2800 a month after taxes and everything....about $1000 goes to rent and food....the other $1000-$1500?
NOTHING BUT CLOTHES, CLOTHES AND MORE CLOTHES!! You should see my closet now.......so many.

I think Kazu was trying to ask me out to go see RENT with him in O.C. but I couldn't understand him very well, since his English is hard to understand. I wish he would just talk in Japanese so I could understand him alot better, but I don't think I would go with him anyway....he's too young (21) and guys at that age dont know WHAT they want. I was about to go to the Halloween party tonight over at the "Japanese" part of San Marcos since Saori invited me, but my plans went down the drain since I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled out tomorrow morning and who knows how long I would be out. Though I think I might buy a hott costume and take some photos....BTDUBS...Kris mail me some time I'm debating on what hott costume to get and need male preference from a male who isnt going to rape me. XD

I HAVE TO BRING THIS TO ATTENTION......MEZZ.....YOU ARE THE MOST AMAZING PERSON EVER!!!! YOU ALWAYS TRANSLATE MY INAPPROPRIATE MESSAGES, DEAL WITH MY PERVERTED MIND, PUT UP WITH MY DELAYED MONEY/GIFT SENDING BUT YOU STILL STAND BY MY SIDE AND WHAT MORE!? YOU SEND ME AMAZING NUGGETS, MANDORLINI, PANIFICIO, ADORABLE DRAWINGS, THE BEAUTIFUL CORK(is it made out of cork?) MINI JEWELRY POT AND AN AMAZING POST CARD....AND OMG YOUR HANDWRITING!? I WANT IT. Oh and I was sooo happy when I bite into the yellow nugget to find it was LEMON and NOT BANANA. I loooooove lemon over banana so I was completely thrilled. Now I have NO EXCUSE I NEED TO SEND BOTH YOU AND DEBS LOVE PACKAGES OUT ASAP. ENJOY YOUR VACATION EMAILS HAVE BEEN SLOW LATELY SO RELAX <333333333

.....lol sorry about the caps but Mezz really is too amazing, so it would be a dishonor to type it in anything but CAPS.

My birthday is next week, crazy I actually remembered this time......well with everyones reminders <3 Even my Fashion Design teacher, Mrs. Parker, gave me an early B-day card which had my horscope on it....My horscope is dead on no doubt, I'm a scorpio for shit... it reads....
"Intense and passionate, Scorpios get right to the heart of the matter and when they have their eyes on something they want, they get it with ease. They are associated with mystery and sexual energy and can be either very good or very bad. There is more to Scorpios than meets the eye. They are concerned with whats under the surface"
   I think the horscope failed to mention that us scorpios master the art of getting under freaky stalkers skin, by simply saying things that aren't even meant to get under the stalkers skin. XD HAHAHA I love it.
                            I hope it's a good one this year but my birthday next year is the one I'm most excited for. <33333

Everything has been going well, I've been feeling so content lately. IM AS CONTENT AND PASSIONATE AS EVER.

DEB YOU ARE AMAZING AND ONCE IM SUPER RICH I WILL SEND YOU AND YOUR FAMILY MONEY AND GIFTS <333

Oct. 2nd, 2009

Thunderstorms, The Prelude

mood: nostalgic

music: "Cumulus" ~Imogen Heap

I'm in Pheonix, Arizona right now visiting my dad, younger brother, and step mom.
           It's always nice to get time off of this crazy life of mine and relax with them.
I was able to score some pretty amazing outfits today and finally got to picking up my favorite conditioner for my long locks.
God my hair is super high maintance and I'm a pretty low maintance girl. It doesn't take me anytime to get ready for the day....even if I look like I got dressed up for the day it probably only took me 10 minutes max....but my hair? Freakin ridiculous. It's nice hair, it's pretty, long hair but if I didn't know how to take care to the freakin thing? It would be a mess. Probably dry, frizzy, and full of split ends. BUT I obsess over my hair to a fault.... oh well it pays off since it looks good even when it's up in a french bun~ which most of the time it is.

     Being in Arizona..... going back to the city I was born in and lived in till I was 10 years old is pretty nostalgic. A monsoon and thunderstorm rolled in today and it just took me back to my childhood. It made me miss those things that made me a happy child. How the gorgeous sun was setting, the cool breeze going past me.....as a huge black storm was approaching from behind.
                            That view is something that I have only seen in Pheonix. No where else, only Pheonix.
Whenever I witness this beauty, I always get this feeling that something is beginning or that something.....is coming. As though something is advent.
I walked the streets of my childhood, smelling the air~ the desert has this amazing smell after it rains and memories where just flashing back to me. The good and the bad. The things that where explainable and the things... I still till this day cannot seem to explain.
I've been feeling so many things, I feel so nostalgic

Though days seem tough and exhausting
and I feel like I never have time for true happiness
I know my chapter in this life of mine is only beginning
I'm beginning to write this book
I am happy, I will be happy
I will try to never hurt people
and vow to never hurt the ones I love

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Sep. 25th, 2009

Your apartment, Is my Playground <3

mood: horny

Awwwww..... man has life been a stressful hoe that needs to get beat for sucking so much.
         but there are good days, days where I remember....."Oh yeah, it's all worth it"
It's really only 2 more years of annoying stuff, and then on to the real deal <333 Tomorrow Kirsti and I are meeting up with all my Japanese tutors so it should be alot of fun.
     .......I....have an addiction.... to clothes...I just....can't resist. When I go pass the mall...its like....the clothes are calling...
               Bebe, NY Company, Forever 21, Charolette Rouesse, Urban Outfitters, Nordstorm....God the list of vanity goes on... <333
It's like this crazy affair........I ALWAYS cave in....I mean I bought 5 shirts today.... BUT I SHOPPED SALES SO YES I AM PROUD!!!

I'm so excited to hear back from someone...<3 I get to see photos of the new place they moved to, AKA my playgroud. Hopefully I get a pic of the bedroom....LMAO.

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Sep. 13th, 2009

Beautiful

mood: busy

Though I love the original, but the Pussycat Dolls
did an good job with it

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Aug. 2nd, 2009

Going to Take more Than the Earthquakes, to Tear this Wall Down

mood: determined

Sorry for my post the other day everyone
=O
Like always I'm doing fine
It was just one of....those days
I'm getting everything back into perspective
Just a little while ago I sobbed for how grateful I was, and how grateful I am

I have so much support from a few people
but their support is the amount of an army at times
I just bursted into tears
NEVER IN MY LIFE
Would being able, to have the chance to live in Tokyo stable,
be possible in my LIFE
If I didn't have this support

I'm so grateful and I'm going to prove everything I have and work to be everything
I've promised to become

It's going to be ALOT of work, time, energy, and sacrifice
but its something I want, and something with each and everyday
I find more reason to be there
I have friends I've promised to party with, guys I've pomised to go on at least one date with
and people I've promised that I would be there one day
Call me crazy
but its where things in my life have directed me
and I'm not going to give up
I could get there and hate it
but I'm never going to know
Till I try

Tags: life story

Jul. 22nd, 2009

I'm The Sweetest Taste Of Sin

mood: nostalgic

Oh wow, it will almost be a whole year since we first met
<33333

~sounds like a gaywad~
Anywho SDCC is tomorrow and I'm stoked

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Jul. 14th, 2009

Marley

mood: thankful

music: "On and On" ~Utada

Marley (Mar-ley) pronoun. 1. A combination of Northern European. ex; Swedish, Danish, Irish, Scottish, Polish, English, and random Cheyenne Indian. 2. To have the apperance of a penthouse model 3. A woman who loves to be naked. 4. To have a weakness for hott Japanese men. 5. A racy woman 6. A child whose first toy was a vanity set....which explains alot. 7. A fashionable woman who suffers from WTHPWHF (wants to hit people with horrible fashion; cases commonly found in the California, NYC, and Paris) 8. To have thunderstorms be the key to the heart. 9. To be EXTREMELY unphotogenic. 10. A woman who is ready for life and takes trials along the way the best she can, no matter how hard the day is....to make it through, to see the end, to have the happiness....to have the calm before the storm.

Reference from people in which care for Marley:
"My beautiful" -Andrew
"A gentle, considerate, and independent girl. You really do your best for me despite your age. Thank you" -SJM
"A girl whose gentle street smarts always seem to amaze me" -Deb
"Mi sexi baby gurl, I wil cradel u den rape u" - Yoko
"Penthouse model, who seems to make me get a headache everytime I try to argue life or serious things with. Your also the God mother of my child.....whatever it's going to be."-Betta
"Bratty Princess" -Cass
"My older sister" -Chelsea
"My roommate for Tokyo and best friend"-Natahsa
"My lover"-Cidknee
"Marley....you are too many things....that one word just doesn't seem to sum up" -Everyone who was too lazy to say anything

Jul. 11th, 2009

Yes, I AM a Spoiled Princess

mood: spoiled

music: "I Bruise Easily" ~Natasha Bedingfield

I am absolutely SPOILED
Guess who is coming to SDCC this year?
Hayao Miyazaki
(and damn for an old man he's pretty hott)

OMG IM GOING TO MEET HAYAO MIYAZAKI!!!!
He is the creator of "Spirited Away" and a ton of other amazing movies from my childhood
Natasha called me squealing (she loves the man more than I do)
I just got done with a HARD day at work, so the news was just great

I'm not really THAT big of a fan
and that is WHY
I'm spoiled
How many people would kill to be in my position
<3

Wow 2 amazing people in a row?
Kubo and now Miyazaki?
It's like every year SDCC gets more and more exciting

But SDCC 2011, WILL be the BEST SDCC
in my life
period
<3333

Tags: hayao miyazaki, im a spoiled princess

Jul. 9th, 2009

Busy but A good Busy

mood: content

music: "On and On" ~Utada

Nothing but being busy running round getting life done
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I'm getting a new car soon, well a new used car
Fall is almost coming which I'm excited about

I'm going to officially start taking professional (not random)
Japanese language classes
I really didn't get anything done in my private ones with Takayuki...
so this will be nice, by the end of senior year I should be at intermedate level with my Japanese
which I really hope shows to be helpful for July of 2011!
Grace I might need your help with certian special phrases though.....~laugh~ ones you wouldn't normally learn in a college course

Work has been alright but you know, its work
eventually it gets continuous and boring just like school
but I'm excited for school....yeah I'm one of those wierd kids

I've also found an AMAZING program for teaching English in Tokyo all thanks to
Space the Awesome!
<3333

Tags: life

Jun. 23rd, 2009

The Future is So bright and Beautiful

mood: Awwmazing

music: "Green Light" ~John Legend

Will Ferrell
Holy S you are so amazing
SNL you make my day sometimes
~laugh~
You have to get Will Ferrell to be able to literally fall on the floor laughing your A off

Awww I'm still so excited for 2011
So many amazing people are coming to visit me!
Yoko can you come over please?
That would make July that much more amazing in 2011

Oooooo and teaching in Tokyo is looking great!
Now all I need to do is figure out a roommate
NO YOKO NOT YOU AND YOUR LESBIAN SELF...but your brother.....
XD
Though I WILL be partying with you like mad, well that is if this hard working english teacher could handle it.....which we both know....
I CAN
Between partying with you, trying to avoid your hott brother who wants me, working, and having sexy-hott nights
I might get......2 hours of sleep?
Merr I can handle it
I'll just crash at a fancy apartment
<3

Tags: 2011, sdcc, tokyo, will ferrell

Jun. 15th, 2009

Kanye West, what You Do to my Soul You Cocky Man

mood: In love with music

Ok I know Kanye West is cocky as F
but he is a genious, and sexy
and this song he sings with
Mr. Hudson
called
"SuperNova"
Is.....soooooooooooo hott
OMG
You have to listen to the whole song
the part where Kanye comes in is just like
"Oh F thats why you're cocky, cause you're talented as F"
Not to mention
"Heartless"
"Love Lockdown"
"Graduation"
SOOOO MANY
Mr. Hudson is great as well, his voice is beautiful and he is way talented as well
This song isn't really rap/hip hop so all you rap/hip hop haters
~boooooo to you~
Just listen to this song because it is seriously
beautiful

Tags: kanye west, mr.hudson, supernova

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Jun. 14th, 2009

The Rent is Cheap, the Adversities are Expensive

mood: working

So I finally found a place to live
My rent is alot cheaper than what it use to be
I have crazy neighbors though.....I swear they are drug dealers
~laugh~
I feel like a professional at moving, everything goes into 10 boxes
but really...its not something I'm proud of
~~~~~~~~~~~
I also came to the conclusion that I don't want children
Why? Well I would love them too much to hurt them
Simple as that, no one is perfect
~~~~~~
I'm really happy and content
Regardless of the trials lurking at every corner
I'm still in high school, finaically taking care of myself, working long hours, cramming for exams, grocery shopping
I get good grades...I don't mess around
I'm my own parent!
........
~laugh~
When you are thrown out to the real world at a young age
You grow up fast
I still do some immature things but I'm learning from them, growing from them to not be that way
Nothing big, just poking fun with some friends
~~~
I've been talking to a few of my Japanese professors at CSSM
I've decided I'm going to teach English in Tokyo!
I'm so stoked
To be a Japanese interpreter/translator it takes about 8 years to actually start working
and I've promised some people I would be in Tokyo in 4 years
Can't break those promises
So...I have to work with what I have and be grateful for every opportunity I recieve
~
The real world is ugly, most families are abussive
but life is beautiful and I'm always grateful to find that beauty

Tags: life story

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Jun. 6th, 2009

Don't Need To Dye My Hair For This!

mood: amused

You Should Date A Japanese Guy!

You're an interesting blend of traditional and modern
And a Japanese guy is likely to be on your wavelength
Maybe you'll show your love by dying your hair the same color
Or get married in a traditional white kimono!

Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

Random quiz I took
And to be honest I didn't need a quiz to tell me that like Japanese guys....LMAO
but when it said this:

"Maybe you'll show your love by dying your hair the same color

Or get married in a traditional white kimono!"

I had a TOTAL
"WTF!? I wouldn't de my hair! and if I wanted to get married in a puffy white princess dress I would!!!!"

Ummmm hello!?
I don't like Japanese guys because I want to BE Japanese
and with all the Japanese guys I have encountered
They like foreign women
I mean every guy does
Its something new and different
It just made me laugh because I know a few people who actually DYE THERE HAIR that color because they WANT TO BE JAPANESE
I love Japanese people....I love all people
and I love being a mutt
~Laugh~
It just makes me laugh when I see people who like Japan try to BE Japan
Sad really

This quiz is semi true, but I'm not a cute flirt
~laugh~
I'm a sexual one

You Are Flirtatious

You are outgoing, talkative, and incredibly social. You love swapping stories and jokes. You're optimistic and enthusiastic. You're both good at being a cheerleader and at cheering people up. You are a very charming person. You make connections easily, and you love harmless flirting. Sometimes your charm can turn against you. People tend to think you're a better friend than you actually are.

Are You Flirtatious, Fearless, Factual, or Friendly?

Tags: japan

Jun. 5th, 2009

2011

mood: Whore

music: "Do That There" Yung Berg

2011 is going to be an AMAZING year
Especially the month of July
<3
HO SHIT is that month going to be sex or what?
<3333
My boobs just got a cup size bigger....
Dear Lord
Camping was alright... it rained the whole time... like always
Still moving.... still searching

Tags: 2011

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May. 25th, 2009

Lost Before Stolen

mood: drained

The one thing I will always remember my father tell me
is the truth about relationships that break apart
He left many, to find what he really wanted
no matter how he got it, no matter what he sacrificed, no matter the precious things he lost
he found it
"You're lost before you're stolen"
Thats what he told me as a young girl, whenever I visited him
Of course at that age I didn't really understand its meaning
but now
I understand it completely
I never thought, that this saying would really apply to me ever in life
Which it hasn't, but it seems to apply......
to someone I like and care for
and to be honest....
it seems to apply to too many people
I talked to him today, to catch up about the things happening in my life
"So how is school going?"
"Great! I just finished up"
"Glad to hear, grades did well as usual?"
"Yup as usual"
"Considering you play mother and father for yourself, I got to hand it to you...you've done well" -laugh-
"Thanks dad....that really does mean alot" ~smile~
It was nice talking to him
He's a great part-time dad
and I don't hate him or hold anything against him for that
I wouldn't trade the life I have or the person I am
for the world
Not for a father and not for a mother
He's a wise man when it comes to relationships
He truely is the perfect example
of sacrificing....
everything
for the one you love

Everything is packed, still finding a place to go
I'll have a new house to stay at
I just need to keep...searching

Tags: relationships

May. 20th, 2009

Moving

mood: sore

Yup....again
Need to find a home
again
yay me

I just love looking for new homes!!.....
not
My head hurts
alot
So do my eyes
and my heart

Tags: life story

May. 10th, 2009

The Heat Is Here D=

location: California

mood: Awwwmazing

music: "Pass That Dutch" ~Missy Elliott

Eww nothing like final exams in 2 weeks
=P
Oh well, at least summer is coming along
Which is one exciting fact...
FREEDOM
Well at least from classes, not work
<333 but I love work <333
Trust me you would love work if your starting pay was
$11.50
=D
BEST JOB
Or thats how I look at things
~shrugs~
I'm just grateful I have that job, its what keeps me alive until I get my degree

Oh yes and SDCC is coming up this July!

Of course I will be going

I always do, and love it
This years crew will be:
Cassie, Natasha, Maddie, Claire, Cidknee And Myself

We are all going to have....WAYYY to much fun

I don't think it will top last SDCC, but I guess we will have to wait and see
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Dear Lord I have been up to no good lately
>=3
Cushions
LOL
Makes me laugh everytime
...............................
Sunset time is the most beautiful time of day

Tags: finals, sdcc '09

May. 8th, 2009

House Fancy

location: California

mood: excited

music: "Deep River" ~Utada Hikaru

Look how AMAZING that wallpaper is
I LOVE WALLPAPER
not to mention how much I love the whole entire furniture in that photo
DEFINATELY my type of furtinture
<333333333333333
I was looking through a book of India I have from national geographics
~YES I spend money on national geographic photography books~
The architecture in India is amazing
I want to go there one day

So beautiful

I need to first get to Tokyo
but one day in the future I would LOVE to go there
Mexico is the only foriegn country I have been too
I use to go there all the time as a young girl
My most prized necklace is from Mexico

Isn't it beautiful?

Tags: india, necklace, wallpaper

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May. 4th, 2009

Yamayuri

location: California

mood: Amused

music: "Deep River"~Utada Hikaru

The flower of my life
I use to have a garden as a young girl
I worked really hard to keep those lilies alive
My grandpa brought them over to me from Japan when I was 6
and I fell in love with them the day I saw them

I thought I was a princess as a child
I never wanted to get dirty (still don't)
and I wore firlly dresses more than the normal human being
I was a complete girly girl
Now I'm "hippie like"
The long wavy/curly hair, only wears masacara, I roll out of bed, wear Urban Outfiters
type of woman
(Ok I KNOW Urban Outfitters is not "hippie like" since you need money to shop there)
but more than anything...
I'm a RACY RACY woman!
I take everything the ~~sexual~~ "innaporiate" way ;D
HAHAHAHAHAHA
I'm still prissy at times

Yup the girly girl is there still inside me

and it will never leave

<3
Well I had white clay in my little "house" and I was thinking about my yamayuris none stop
Something I'm so excited for
Is that yamayuris grow wild in Japan!!!
<3333333333333333333
I love those flowers sooooooo much
So guess what i made!?

I made a yamayuri ring out of clay!!!!!!
~VERY PROUD OF SELF~
Sorry the photos are blurry
my hands seem to be very shaky =/

For someone who can't draw for sh~t
I am MASTAR at making yamayuri rings
<333333333333333333

Tags: racy, type of woman, yamayuri

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